Monday, November 14, 2011
yet another post on ec again.
After reading much of the tips and ways to get ovr your crush online I would say the hardest but most effective way of getting over your work crush is by confessin. Yeap as true and scary the word might sound, its either a make or break move. However, depending on your crush and yourself, confessing you're feelings to him might not be a good move. For me, I think I will have a high chance of getting rejected. Rejection doesn't stops there. What if it is gonna be so awakening having to see each other almost everyday and have to work together. I think I will melt in embarrassment. But then again, if the other half, which is the crush handles it well enough, confessing my feelings to him wouldn't be a problem. It would have been easier as there do be a closure in it.
I'm just kinda upset today. Of all things to say I have to say are you checking out ur fats. I know you are sensitive to it. Dem. I shld have just shut my mouth up. I'm sorry it just came out from my brain without thinking. Total regrets now. Anyways, you haven't been sitting in our meetings, will you be handling other portfoilos already?
I sound so shallow and childish here, I just wonder when will this be over, when will I stop thinking about you so much when you possibiliy can't even be bothered with me.
Hope you will enjoy ur india trip. I didn't even know have to hear it from others. If only you could chat up with me more often. I hope you'd bring me along but I guess you could be going there with a girl. Hope at least you'd be able to come by back for c wedding. Hope to be able to see you thens!
Sunday, November 13, 2011
no idea.
hope i'm not going to be the fool all over again.
do i ever have a chance for you to miss me or think about me? am i your type?
made a wrong move. i should have been with him. maybe there's just someone for me out there.
wish you are already with me. or it is really you moh?
Friday, November 11, 2011
Ec just don't care abt me.
I already cunningly drop my phone number in my ooo. I vet he really isn't interested in me hence never bothered to text :( zzzz.
11 11 11 wish
On this day 11 11 11 triple doubles day l wish you'd ask me out tmr or Sunday for a date. If only you could SMS or whatsapp me to go out with you. Just wanna get to know each other better.
I wish you could allow me to shine in front of you for once.
I wish you could allow me to shine in front of you for once.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Oh no!
Oh no! I thInk I done something rude today! I should not have put the gift ino the general box! Should have brought home to eat!
Day 2
I might have think too much into the simple conversation you had with me. Was really nice that you remembered my item :)
Then again, u sat how away from me in the meeting room again. Probably one of the signs that I read online, people with a URL in mind will tend to sit away from other girls :( point number two spotted was when I said bye there wasn't any eye contact.
Day 2, I hope I can do it. I don't wanna hurt myself no more and I need to concentrate on my work. If you do have feelings for me then I would be easier. Will be so much better.
Then again, u sat how away from me in the meeting room again. Probably one of the signs that I read online, people with a URL in mind will tend to sit away from other girls :( point number two spotted was when I said bye there wasn't any eye contact.
Day 2, I hope I can do it. I don't wanna hurt myself no more and I need to concentrate on my work. If you do have feelings for me then I would be easier. Will be so much better.
Monday, November 7, 2011
Getting over EC day 0.5
I have told myself the points in why he's not into me. Hence, I'm gonna stop myself from checking out Facebook excessively and of course not to check his entry and all. He can be counted as my working partner,may have to work with him closely but I think if the new guy is able to catch up fast he wouldn't be sitting in so often.
When online to read up on how you can stop crushing on your crush and I took up one of the pointers, as to list down the pros n cons of the person. But in this case I listed out the cons of why he is not interested in me. From the points given, it's very obvious that he isn't interested in me. Which is sad, cus it's not a two way thingy and im making myself upset over someone who don't like me attractive. I shld push myself to move on and look for someone who is able to see thru me and talk to me. Can't blame EC as I such a nervous wreck infront of him whenever we talk. I scared orade his uninterested in me alr then.
Reading thru the well wishes from my ex colleagues, I realised they all find me cheerful and bubbly. I wanna bring these traits over to my work place and work it. I need to shine and flourish. I miss the old team but this new job is one of another new milestone in my life I'm glad I took it up. Meeting EC here could be by chance or fate. What will the next step be? Will fate be able to take one step ahead for EC and me. I hope we could get to know each other better.
Plan tommorrow is smile when I see him and probably make small talks about his pics if I see him. On a side note my crush for him will have to be minimized day by day as I'm not eating too well and it's not worth being like this. Though it's a good chance for me to slim down :))
I pray that you will notice me and we could get to know each other better over dinner or so. I wish I pray I hope.
Thank god and guardian angel.
When online to read up on how you can stop crushing on your crush and I took up one of the pointers, as to list down the pros n cons of the person. But in this case I listed out the cons of why he is not interested in me. From the points given, it's very obvious that he isn't interested in me. Which is sad, cus it's not a two way thingy and im making myself upset over someone who don't like me attractive. I shld push myself to move on and look for someone who is able to see thru me and talk to me. Can't blame EC as I such a nervous wreck infront of him whenever we talk. I scared orade his uninterested in me alr then.
Reading thru the well wishes from my ex colleagues, I realised they all find me cheerful and bubbly. I wanna bring these traits over to my work place and work it. I need to shine and flourish. I miss the old team but this new job is one of another new milestone in my life I'm glad I took it up. Meeting EC here could be by chance or fate. What will the next step be? Will fate be able to take one step ahead for EC and me. I hope we could get to know each other better.
Plan tommorrow is smile when I see him and probably make small talks about his pics if I see him. On a side note my crush for him will have to be minimized day by day as I'm not eating too well and it's not worth being like this. Though it's a good chance for me to slim down :))
I pray that you will notice me and we could get to know each other better over dinner or so. I wish I pray I hope.
Thank god and guardian angel.
Getting over EC day 0.5
I have told myself the points in why he's not into me. Hence, I'm gonna stop myself from checking out Facebook excessively and of course not to check his entry and all. He can be counted as my working partner,may have to work with him closely but I think if the new guy is able to catch up fast he wouldn't be sitting in so often.
When online to read up on how you can stop crushing on your crush and I took up one of the pointers, as to list down the pros n cons of the person. But in this case I listed out the cons of why he is not interested in me. From the points given, it's very obvious that he isn't interested in me. Which is sad, cus it's not a two way thingy and im making myself upset over someone who don't like me attractive. I shld push myself to move on and look for someone who is able to see thru me and talk to me. Can't blame EC as I such a nervous wreck infront of him whenever we talk. I scared orade his uninterested in me alr then.
Reading thru the well wishes from my ex colleagues, I realised they all find me cheerful and bubbly. I wanna bring these traits over to my work place and work it. I need to shine and flourish. I miss the old team but this new job is one of another new milestone in my life I'm glad I took it up. Meeting EC here could be by chance or fate. What will the next step be? Will fate be able to take one step ahead for EC and me. I hope we could get to know each other better.
Plan tommorrow is smile when I see him and probably make small talks about his pics if I see him. On a side note my crush for him will have to be minimized day by day as I'm not eating too well and it's not worth being like this. Though it's a good chance for me to slim down :))
I pray that you will notice me and we could get to know each other better over dinner or so. I wish I pray I hope.
Thank god and guardian angel.
When online to read up on how you can stop crushing on your crush and I took up one of the pointers, as to list down the pros n cons of the person. But in this case I listed out the cons of why he is not interested in me. From the points given, it's very obvious that he isn't interested in me. Which is sad, cus it's not a two way thingy and im making myself upset over someone who don't like me attractive. I shld push myself to move on and look for someone who is able to see thru me and talk to me. Can't blame EC as I such a nervous wreck infront of him whenever we talk. I scared orade his uninterested in me alr then.
Reading thru the well wishes from my ex colleagues, I realised they all find me cheerful and bubbly. I wanna bring these traits over to my work place and work it. I need to shine and flourish. I miss the old team but this new job is one of another new milestone in my life I'm glad I took it up. Meeting EC here could be by chance or fate. What will the next step be? Will fate be able to take one step ahead for EC and me. I hope we could get to know each other better.
Plan tommorrow is smile when I see him and probably make small talks about his pics if I see him. On a side note my crush for him will have to be minimized day by day as I'm not eating too well and it's not worth being like this. Though it's a good chance for me to slim down :))
I pray that you will notice me and we could get to know each other better over dinner or so. I wish I pray I hope.
Thank god and guardian angel.
Saturday, November 5, 2011
analyzing
1. he dont remember where i previously works at
2. dont think he trust me at meetings yet
3. he hardly talks to me
4. when im going home i walk pass him i said bye to my boss and nv say bye to him though he looks up
5. i tried to post lots of music videos and pics trying to gain his attention but apparently he isn't looking and i think he might be feeling that im flooding his facebook
6. he carried a gal and has her number. he doesnt have my number though we are counterparts.
7. i added him on facebook, he just accepted. he didnt initiate to add me. i bet he added the gal that he carried.
8. our eye contacts are less then 3s
9. he dont understand what im saying most of the time
10. im too nervous and un-fun in front of him
11. i dont know what kind of girls he likes
12. i dont know how to talk to him
13. i dont know how to react to him
14. im not eating well cus im thinking of him most of the time
15. i need to work hard and not be a bimbo in front of him
16. i feel like a fool in front of him
17. he likes girls with nice smile, and i dont have. how about i look ugly
18. he asked whether i needa ride to the dinner out of countesy as he might have felt that i wasnt so close with anyone in the office
19. im the idiot who replied to those nonsense emails the first and i cant reply work emails. =( cus im not used to it yet. =( dem, i sure look like a bimbo or apple polisher!
20. after dinner he didnt ask whether we need a ride home or going to any round 2 or not. zzzz.
21. he chose to sit near my boss and left 2 seats blank in front of me
22. when i seat next to my boss discussing about my kpi he moved away. maybe its becus it was confidential hence, he have to move away.
23. at the dinner i deliberately move away to the washroom cus i wanna see if he would try to come over but he didnt.
24. when i got back to my seat from toilet he was talking at our table, sigh, it means probably without me then he feel comfortable to come over to me, with or without me its just nothing to him.
25. im not his type? =(
26. im ugly
27. i hope i dont look like a fool in front of him.
with all these points, i guess i should really give up on him, but how?
2. dont think he trust me at meetings yet
3. he hardly talks to me
4. when im going home i walk pass him i said bye to my boss and nv say bye to him though he looks up
5. i tried to post lots of music videos and pics trying to gain his attention but apparently he isn't looking and i think he might be feeling that im flooding his facebook
6. he carried a gal and has her number. he doesnt have my number though we are counterparts.
7. i added him on facebook, he just accepted. he didnt initiate to add me. i bet he added the gal that he carried.
8. our eye contacts are less then 3s
9. he dont understand what im saying most of the time
10. im too nervous and un-fun in front of him
11. i dont know what kind of girls he likes
12. i dont know how to talk to him
13. i dont know how to react to him
14. im not eating well cus im thinking of him most of the time
15. i need to work hard and not be a bimbo in front of him
16. i feel like a fool in front of him
17. he likes girls with nice smile, and i dont have. how about i look ugly
18. he asked whether i needa ride to the dinner out of countesy as he might have felt that i wasnt so close with anyone in the office
19. im the idiot who replied to those nonsense emails the first and i cant reply work emails. =( cus im not used to it yet. =( dem, i sure look like a bimbo or apple polisher!
20. after dinner he didnt ask whether we need a ride home or going to any round 2 or not. zzzz.
21. he chose to sit near my boss and left 2 seats blank in front of me
22. when i seat next to my boss discussing about my kpi he moved away. maybe its becus it was confidential hence, he have to move away.
23. at the dinner i deliberately move away to the washroom cus i wanna see if he would try to come over but he didnt.
24. when i got back to my seat from toilet he was talking at our table, sigh, it means probably without me then he feel comfortable to come over to me, with or without me its just nothing to him.
25. im not his type? =(
26. im ugly
27. i hope i dont look like a fool in front of him.
with all these points, i guess i should really give up on him, but how?
on EC topic again
how do I get over a crush for a fellow colleague..? the feeling sucks, having to see him everyday and never really have the guts to speak with him. even if i do have a chance to speak to him, i'd be too nervous and freaked out to say something interesting or to maintain the conversation with him. sigh if he'd be interested in me, then things would have been easier =(
i wish we could have a longer chance to talk. just wanna try to get to know him more. if only the feelings were mutual. i guess the gal that he carried and drove to the hospital was his type of gal. at least she had the guts to chat up with him or he'd be interested to talk to her.
im just a boring old freak that nobody wants to talk to? =( i should really stop caring how others sees me as and i should really be more me when i have the chance to talk to him again. but im always so worried that i do say the wrong things or bore him, how how how how. i think i needa go for dating/flirting 101. help needed here. or maybe im just not his kind of girl i should just forget. but how do i do it? i see him mostly at work, feel so weird when other girls can just talk freely to him, i wanna be able to talk freely to him too but how? =(
oh god will i get a chance to get to know him better, to talk over dinner? i wish i do have the chance. =)
i wish we could have a longer chance to talk. just wanna try to get to know him more. if only the feelings were mutual. i guess the gal that he carried and drove to the hospital was his type of gal. at least she had the guts to chat up with him or he'd be interested to talk to her.
im just a boring old freak that nobody wants to talk to? =( i should really stop caring how others sees me as and i should really be more me when i have the chance to talk to him again. but im always so worried that i do say the wrong things or bore him, how how how how. i think i needa go for dating/flirting 101. help needed here. or maybe im just not his kind of girl i should just forget. but how do i do it? i see him mostly at work, feel so weird when other girls can just talk freely to him, i wanna be able to talk freely to him too but how? =(
oh god will i get a chance to get to know him better, to talk over dinner? i wish i do have the chance. =)
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Eye candy
Had dinner today with a colleague who is leavin the team soon. They dinner was great and the atmosphere was fun as well. The feelings are just as nostalgic as it was month ago. When my colleagues agencies friends celebrated lunch tgt w me. Guys always seems so strong, they'd never tear. I tried not to cry when I left my team then too. I kinda missed what I was doing but I know at some point of the time we need to move on and learn more.
Oh wells. Tittle named 'eye candy'. Yes, my eye candy was there but through this dinner it just shows that my eye candy is not interested in me. One side, unrequsite love again. I was delighted when he asked if I'm gg over to the restaurant with anyone, if not I could take join the rest and hitch a ride to go. I rejected cus my colleagues alr have arranged for me. Kinda sweet of him to ask but i guess it all out of politeness and cus just nice I was walking pass ec and friends.
The dinner was probably the wake up call. We sat at different tables. However, diagonally I could still see him from like opposite each other. I laughed uglily and laughed noisily much like a big turn off or him. He only walked over to our table because he needed to talk to my another colleague about wad can we order and where's the toilet all. Haha of cus to occasionally talk to boy who was leaving. At first I might have thought of wad zj had said. Guys will try to find ways to get close to you if they like you. True to an extend but I don't think he's into me, when I left for toilet and when I came back he was again at our table but when came back he left the table shortly. Probably avoiding me. Sheesh I felt so disgusted about myself and upset at the same time.
Its me and my wishful thinking again :( feel kinda embarrass though. Why can't he like me? Am I so undesirable to him? Feel upset but I can't cry it out. I don't like the feeling of hurt and I dont like hurting myself. I needa get over really soon.
Thinks he already have a girl in mind. When they show the slide show, when his pic with another girl came up there was a cat call. They might have some liking i guess :( guess guys don't really like girls like me. Oh another clue will be, after our dinner when we left, he didn't offer to drive us back and instead my friend and I saw him, we just smiled and wave bye. His eye contact on my was less the 3s, that didn't last for the hopeful 8s that I was waiting for :(
I'm like a fool again. I'm giving myself this week as the last week to do stunts on him. After which I want to push myself to move on.
I want to be happy again.
Oh wells. Tittle named 'eye candy'. Yes, my eye candy was there but through this dinner it just shows that my eye candy is not interested in me. One side, unrequsite love again. I was delighted when he asked if I'm gg over to the restaurant with anyone, if not I could take join the rest and hitch a ride to go. I rejected cus my colleagues alr have arranged for me. Kinda sweet of him to ask but i guess it all out of politeness and cus just nice I was walking pass ec and friends.
The dinner was probably the wake up call. We sat at different tables. However, diagonally I could still see him from like opposite each other. I laughed uglily and laughed noisily much like a big turn off or him. He only walked over to our table because he needed to talk to my another colleague about wad can we order and where's the toilet all. Haha of cus to occasionally talk to boy who was leaving. At first I might have thought of wad zj had said. Guys will try to find ways to get close to you if they like you. True to an extend but I don't think he's into me, when I left for toilet and when I came back he was again at our table but when came back he left the table shortly. Probably avoiding me. Sheesh I felt so disgusted about myself and upset at the same time.
Its me and my wishful thinking again :( feel kinda embarrass though. Why can't he like me? Am I so undesirable to him? Feel upset but I can't cry it out. I don't like the feeling of hurt and I dont like hurting myself. I needa get over really soon.
Thinks he already have a girl in mind. When they show the slide show, when his pic with another girl came up there was a cat call. They might have some liking i guess :( guess guys don't really like girls like me. Oh another clue will be, after our dinner when we left, he didn't offer to drive us back and instead my friend and I saw him, we just smiled and wave bye. His eye contact on my was less the 3s, that didn't last for the hopeful 8s that I was waiting for :(
I'm like a fool again. I'm giving myself this week as the last week to do stunts on him. After which I want to push myself to move on.
I want to be happy again.
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